If you haven’t read Part 45 – The Horse That Showed Me The Truth – it is about Kert working with Cody. With this horse he did not succeed as he seemed to have done with every other horse I had seen. It was one step forward, two steps back. The atmosphere always seemed chaotic when he was working – with the other horses stabled nearby very unsettled.
After some time – his owner expressed that if she had known Cody was so ‘difficult’ she wouldn’t have bought him – Kert was furious- took it as a criticism of his training and decided he would not work with the horse any more.
While I was over there, I’d had a chat to Cody. He had said to me ‘I’m going to take the bullet – he needs to be seen in his true light’. The horses had told me it was the same for them – they wanted to follow him – it was like a drug – just like the humans who followed him. But then he tired of them – once he didn’t need them for any purpose.
I promised Cody I wouldn’t forget him – I would deliver this message for him – ‘the truth’ ………. and this is why I have gone into detail regarding Kert. Cody allowed me to snap out of the perception that Kert could do magic with horses. I will forever thank him for that.
Now – finishing the ‘Kert story’ – people have asked me if there were any positives? YES!!
Kert taught me about going slowly, calming down – there is no need to hurry around a horse. He also taught me about body awareness – to be conscious of my thoughts, my breathing – any tension etc. etc. The exercises were wonderful – and I think this is his biggest strength – learning how to move, how to be conscious of your body.
I also made many friends – some I still have a strong bond with after all these years – I would not have met them but for Kert – so I thank him..
I can also thank Kert for taking me to the depths, playing with my mind, sending me to zero confidence – not just with horses – in myself – for it is at that point where you can decide to either give up and wallow forever – or to dust yourself off, stand up again – and go in search of other things.
I chose the latter – and it was reading Sigrid Kreile’s book that finally woke me up completely.
If you go back to Part 63 – The Stages of Grieving where I talk about the stages I went through, I mention that the anger stage lasted a long time – I was confused as well. However when I was able to read that book, it all made sense. I had unwittingly signed up for a course being run by someone who was not only unstable, but had the charismatic characteristics of a cult leader. It was quite reasonable to dismiss Kert’s outbursts at first as the sign of a very intelligent and talented horse trainer. It is also normal to give people the benefit of the doubt – to see the good in others.
He is a master at self promotion – so any unsuspecting horse enthusiast could fall victim. And it is as simple as that – we crossed paths – coincidence? – or fate??? I was challenged on so many levels – but now I was regaining my confidence – it was time to go in search of a style of horse training that did not include cowboys or shamans!!!!
In fact I almost feel sorry for Kert! To live like that must truly be awful… although not as bad as the ones who live with him – who are forever trapped under his spell.
Once again – thankyou Cody – I hope you are frolicking somewhere in the heavens!!
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At the time I wrote this poem in response to Cody’s demise: http://www.horsesandhumans.com/poetry/codys-song/.
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Wow! What a story ! I love your writing and admire that you are brave enough to tell it. I think this could happen to anyone given the right circumstances. I too once dreamed of going to a Kert clinic. There was something that he said once that I didn’t like and I lost interest. I would never expect a person with all those talents and being so very gifted to be basically using it all for evil. After reading your account I am so glad I never did go.
Thank you so much for sharing. I’m glued to your blog.
What a life’s lesson. Glad you rose above it !
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Susan I’m glad you are enjoying the blog – it’s quite a story isn’t it!
I’ve had to put down this wonderful account and go and cuddle my horses while the tears subside. We humans can be so unutterably evil I’m ashamed. Sending love to the spirit of brave Cody
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A very brave little horse….