If you haven’t read Part 45 – The Horse That Showed Me The Truth – it is about Kert working with Cody. With this horse he did not succeed as he seemed to have done with every other horse I had seen. It was one step forward, two steps back. The atmosphere always seemed chaotic when he was working – with the other horses stabled nearby very unsettled.
After some time – his owner expressed that if she had known Cody was so ‘difficult’ she wouldn’t have bought him – Kert was furious- took it as a criticism of his training and decided he would not work with the horse any more.
While I was over there, I’d had a chat to Cody. He had said to me ‘I’m going to take the bullet – he needs to be seen in his true light’. The horses had told me it was the same for them – they wanted to follow him – it was like a drug – just like the humans who followed him. But then he tired of them – once he didn’t need them for any purpose.
I promised Cody I wouldn’t forget him – I would deliver this message for him – ‘the truth’ ………. and this is why I have gone into detail regarding Kert. Cody allowed me to snap out of the perception that Kert could do magic with horses. I will forever thank him for that.
Now – finishing the ‘Kert story’ – people have asked me if there were any positives? YES!!
Kert taught me about going slowly, calming down – there is no need to hurry around a horse. He also taught me about body awareness – to be conscious of my thoughts, my breathing – any tension etc. etc. The exercises were wonderful – and I think this is his biggest strength – learning how to move, how to be conscious of your body.
I also made many friends – some I still have a strong bond with after all these years – I would not have met them but for Kert – so I thank him..
I can also thank Kert for taking me to the depths, playing with my mind, sending me to zero confidence – not just with horses – in myself – for it is at that point where you can decide to either give up and wallow forever – or to dust yourself off, stand up again – and go in search of other things.
I chose the latter – and it was reading Sigrid Kreile’s book that finally woke me up completely.
If you go back to Part 63 – The Stages of Grieving where I talk about the stages I went through, I mention that the anger stage lasted a long time – I was confused as well. However when I was able to read that book, it all made sense. I had unwittingly signed up for a course being run by someone who was not only unstable, but had the charismatic characteristics of a cult leader. It was quite reasonable to dismiss Kert’s outbursts at first as the sign of a very intelligent and talented horse trainer. It is also normal to give people the benefit of the doubt – to see the good in others.
He is a master at self promotion – so any unsuspecting horse enthusiast could fall victim. And it is as simple as that – we crossed paths – coincidence? – or fate??? I was challenged on so many levels – but now I was regaining my confidence – it was time to go in search of a style of horse training that did not include cowboys or shamans!!!!
In fact I almost feel sorry for Kert! To live like that must truly be awful… although not as bad as the ones who live with him – who are forever trapped under his spell.
Once again – thankyou Cody – I hope you are frolicking somewhere in the heavens!!
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